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[07 Feb 2005|05:13pm] |
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i finally made a little effort to post today. This weekend was fun! I got to hang out with the lovely Taylor and she is very cool. We went to the show at the grange and saw some hot guys there! Oh my god! it was amazing. I got to talk to some of them too. Hung out with Raychell. I cut my hair. I'm dying it really soon. I will show you pictures of that. I was hoping for a valentine but I'm not gonna get one.
I'm goin to some shows here's a list:
Feb. 10 From First To Last, Matchbook Romance, Motion City Soundtrack
Feb. 17 Bright Eyes
Feb 20 The Locust
Feb 26 The Fall Of Troy
Mar 5 The Blood Brothers <3333
Apr 11 Underoath
Anyone wanna go with me that would be cool. Sooooo yeah. I almost got into a car crash and died yesterday. That would have sucked. What would the world be like without poor little Linda around?? Bahahaha.. I need to be more careful.. too much road rage seriously.
I got over my depression. I've once again accepted the fact that guys are bitches and are never gonna change. And so.. with that i changed my attitude also. It was pretty easy. I'm not gonna take people's shit anymore and I'm gonna yell at them hardcore if they are being STUPID.
I heart Jenn.
( ART. )
And whoevers lj that has like 40 or something pictures on it should put it under a LJ CUT cuz i can't look at my friends page cuz my computer dies! a;klsdds!
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[24 Jan 2005|02:01am] |
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hey i know your tricks. the kids say "oh what a bloody shame" ,you walk around the corner near train station A.. you know your minds a turnstile in a 2 way accident.
yeah that seemed compelling.
some people create really weird lyrics.
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| everything is gonna be just aweful when we're around |
[20 Jan 2005|02:48pm] |
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YA i passed my drive test. how exciting. oh and yes blood brothers tonight! im gonna take lots of pictures so i will update with pics hell ya. anyway. today seems to be okay by the looks of it.. besides the fuckin homework. oh well. i hope i find "time" to do it. my mom gets me insured tomorrow so then i will get to drive whenever i want to just as long as i pay for gas sometimes. YEAH so BYE
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[18 Jan 2005|11:39pm] |
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EXTRA ticket to the blood brothers on thursday. ... damnit fuck shit. well i can go by myself and make friends there cuz i know i was supposed to meet some people there already from myspace. man.. oh man.. i forgot how good the blood brothers are! okay so next update we will see if i PASSED MY DRIVE TEST OR NOT. yep bye.
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| its my birthday?!? okay..... yeah im not excited |
[18 Jan 2005|12:38am] |
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right now i am IN LOVE with the misfits.. i used to be before.. but then i just kinda listened to them once in a while but now im in love again like i said cuz JOE got me back into them.
but i need prozac cuz i feel like im having a case of depression cuz everythings been meaningless for the past like month or so and its fucking retarded but that doesn't mean that some things have cheered me up for a little bit but then my gladness turns to gloominess within a few hours or so and yeah its fucking stupid and i hate it.
so today is my bday. and i get to take my drivers test. which im probably gonna fail because im so damn pessimistic. so if i don't fail.. YAY ME! i will get to drive and see Joe a little more often if he wants and i can drive over to Jenns and i can drive to Seattle and see more awesome shows and i can drive alyssa places if she gives me some gas money ... BUT i probably still wont be as happy as i would like until i get PROZAC cuz life is a fucking bitch ass cunt.
So we will see..
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| i'll wear your skin as a suit, pretend to be you, your friends will like you more than they used to |
[15 Jan 2005|07:13pm] |
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It's weird how things change so easily. I hung out with Joe from Burlington last night. And i met him off of myspace haha. WELL.. he wanted to go for a walk outside and it's fuckin freezing outside! But i said okay and he took me to this little park thing by a river but i couldnt see anything because it was dark. I bet it was pretty looking. He was like "why couldn't i have met you sooner?" and we made out lol. Ahh good times. He's so cool though. He likes The Misfits! And At The Drive In and AFI too! I fuckin love them! And he's really cute. Hm.. well
Right now I'm kind of in a weird mood. I feel like i should be happy but I guess I'm just.. not. And its 3 DAYS until my birthday. But i'm not excited at all. And also, 3 days til i take my drive test. Maybe you guys should wish me luck. I so need to practice my parallel parking.. and read the manual since i really haven't yet. I'm sure it's easy.
Anyway, 3 day weekend. It snowed today. Then it rained. That's so stupid. I'm beginning to hate snow. It's too cold! I want to stay at home wrapped in blankets all day! GRRR.
I've fallen in love with From First To Last.
Blah.. comments. I need comments.
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| i'll promise to pull the trigger |
[11 Jan 2005|12:15am] |
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I've been at a loss for words for quite some time now. I have it all in my head, ALL Of IT, and I'm thinking about alot of different things right now.. i just can't find a way to write it on paper or type it out. I'm sure if it was a drawing it would have some weird disfigured shapes and obscure pictures... but seeing that i am uncapable of drawing ANYTHING.. i will just have to find my way to express my thoughts in the meantime.
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[05 Jan 2005|10:06pm] |
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The first time i actually do homework.. microsoft word freezes up and i didn't save my work. How the fuck can microsoft word freeze? It fuckin shows what luck i have. 50 point assignment down the fucking drain.
God hates me. If there is one.
Oh, and going vegan is gay. True it's like one less animal being slaughtered a day but it still won't do shit. You need to eat meat to be healthy. I still respect the ones who choose to go vegan i just don't agree with the idea myself. I love cheeseburgers. My fave.
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| crush the cubes .. you know. crushed cubes |
[03 Jan 2005|09:18pm] |
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Dreams should be real. They seem to be alot funner sounding than the life I'm living anyway. Even though I seem to be falling in some of them to my horrible death.. or someone i love dearly dies.. but I'm not talking about those kind. The good ones. Like that one I had when I met AFI. Or that one where I had lots of money and a big room :)
It's so cold. I wanna hide. And stay warm and sleep. Just do what I wanna do. If only it would snow. Then I could go out and play and make snow men with mohawks.
And... 15 days until my birthday. I suggest you should get me a little something if you care. Cuz you should care. I mean if i had money i would buy you something too. But i don't. I hope I will pass my drivers test that day too. Ahh nervousness.
Umm... I hung out with Jenn all day today. I love her. <3
What would be even cooler while I'm staying warm and sleeping would be to stay warm and sleep WITH someone. I've never actually fully done that yet. I had Chris over once and I tried to sleep but I only dozed off for a few minutes and then I woke up again. Yeah... that's not it. I miss the feeling of having a boyfriend. I never seem to find ones that work. I always seem to pick out the weird/strange/fucked up people. I figure if I can get past a month dating them.. then it's good. That's my fucking goal.. since I haven't passed it yet. It's crazy how I hear that some people's longest relationships lasted a few years or so and I'm like.. "ohhh you beat me by like 30 times. In a row."
I also heard from Chris that there were some rumors about me. He heard that I had slept with 15 people or some number around there. He heard that he lost his virginity to me. Where do people think of things like this?
Well so it may seem that this post is kind of depressing-like but I'm not feeling depressed. I'm actually feeling alright. Not good. Not bad. Well I'm off to take a shower.. I know you don't really feel like reading all this girly writings.
Payce.
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[27 Dec 2004|01:23am] |
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Hi you. I got an Ipod. Fucking excited! Yeah... but it's sunday and Nick was supposed to hang out with me but he didn't :( lame. Ohhh but Jenn isn't grounded anymore FUCK YEAH!!! I'm calling her in the morning hopefully she can hang outttt. Blah I'm alone and stuff.. but yeah. My mom's birthday is tomorrow. OHhh but hey. She got her eyebrow pierced. WTF. She got her nose pierced like a few weeks ago!! So I asked her if i could get my eyebrow pierced and she said she would think about it. Hmmm.. she better say yes. I wanted my lip too but i think she basically said no to that one. GRRR..
i got $$$ now. woo
New Years should be fun..
Blah at that.
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| Okay lets talk about this |
[23 Dec 2004|09:58pm] |
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Gosh I wish I knew what I wanted. I can't keep going through with this. It is like every chance I get, I take it. I'm a tease. That's it. I can't keep doing this. Josh came over today yeah. And he likes me. We held hands. But I don't feel the way he does. I just want to be held by someone.. anyone. Whoever comes along.. and I'm sure he doesn't understand that because I can't even tell him my own true feelings. It's hard to tell anyone my true feelings considering all those billions of times i've been shot down and brutally stabbed in the back with a butcher knife. And it's hard for me to let someone down like that because I'm a very caring person and I absolutely hate letting people down or making them sad. That's almost like I'm being dishonest about things. One thing I hate: getting lead on. But I'm being a hipocrit aren't I? I have to tell him..
Sooo um yeah... what's even worse is that i'm beginning to develop feelings for someone i talk to online and on the phone. I'm beginning to feel something i was totally against a few weeks ago. What is up with this? I feel ridiculous telling this to people.. I don't know what's going on with my life right now. I don't know what's going on with my head. I keep feeling like I'm making the wrong decisions. I'm probably going to eventually hurt someone in the process. Ughhh.
Why can't I just find someone that likes me for me and vise versa?
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